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Gwyneth Paltrow discusses grieving her father’s death

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‘It was so physical it felt like it split me open’: Gwyneth Paltrow reveals she woke up in the night and ‘thought she was having a heart attack’ while grieving her father’s death

Gwyneth Paltrow has revealed that she once woke up in the night and ‘thought she was having a heart attack’ while grieving her father’s death. 

Speaking on the Wylde Moon podcast with Holly Willoughby, the Goop founder, 49, told how her grief was so ‘physical’ that it felt like it would ‘split her open’.

Gwyneth’s father Bruce died in 2002 at the age of 58 after being diagnosed with throat cancer. Gywneth was just 30 when he passed away.

Difficult: Gwyneth Paltrow has revealed that she once woke up in the night and ‘thought she was having a heart attack’ while grieving her father’s death

She explained candidly on the podcast: ‘I lost my dad to cancer when I was 30. He was only 58. It gets so abstract as the years go on. You are so far away from the last phone call, the last meal you had with them the last embrace, your relationship with them is in another realm.

‘When it first happened I never anticipated that it was possible to have a feeling like that. It was not in my lexicon of emotions. It was so physical it felt like it split me open. 

‘After the funeral I was living in London and I woke up one night in the middle of the night and I thought I was having a heart attack. The only reason I didn’t call the emergency services was because I didn’t know it was 999 in England! 

Sad: Gwyneth's father Bruce died in 2002 at the age of 58 after being diagnosed with throat cancer. Gywneth was just 30 when he passed away

Sad: Gwyneth’s father Bruce died in 2002 at the age of 58 after being diagnosed with throat cancer. Gywneth was just 30 when he passed away

‘But I thought I was dying. It was really really tough, I don’t know how we got through it, it was really messed up. It’s sad he’s not part of my life now.’

The star went on to explain how her wellness company Goop was created a few years after his death, after she took an interest in holistic health following his illness.

She explained: ‘Starting Goop was after he died. When he was diagnosed I started looking at environmental toxins and how food affects our health. That is what started me on this whole journey.’ 

During her chat with Holly she also opened up about living with fame and how she went into hiding at her parent’s house for three weeks after winning her Oscar for Shakespeare in Love in 1999.

Inspiration: The star went on to explain how her wellness company Goop was created a few years after his death, after she took an interest in holistic health following his illness

Inspiration: The star went on to explain how her wellness company Goop was created a few years after his death, after she took an interest in holistic health following his illness

She said of the experience: ‘My nervous system was having a really hard time recuperating. There was so much scrutiny and social interaction around these awards. 

‘I was kind of a kid I was only 26 and it was so intense. I was put on this fake pedestal and afterwards I then just sort of collapsed. 

‘So I went home after and tried to remember who I was, it can be hard if you start to believe all the bulls**t people say about you and if you believe you’re special or the best. It was intense.’

The actress won the Academy Award for Best Actress in 1999 for her performance in the film where she played Shakespeare’s muse Viola. 

Attention: During her chat with Holly she also opened up about living with fame and how she went into hiding at her parent's house for three weeks after winning her Oscar for Shakespeare in Love in 1999

Attention: During her chat with Holly she also opened up about living with fame and how she went into hiding at her parent’s house for three weeks after winning her Oscar for Shakespeare in Love in 1999

Also during the podcast chat Gwyneth opened up about speaking out about Harvey Weinstein – which sparked the beginning of the Me Too movement.

She was a key figure in the New York Times story that first catalogued a series of sexual harassment allegations against the producer. 

The star explained: ‘It was long overdue, those systems had been in place for so long and they still are in so many fields. I really felt like I had to say something. 

‘I didn’t really realise at the time that it would cascade and change culture. I hope we continue to evolve as a culture. We need to keep an eye on exploitation of any kind.’

Tough: Also during the podcast chat Gwyneth opened up about speaking out about Harvey Weinstein - which sparked the beginning of the Me Too movement

Tough: Also during the podcast chat Gwyneth opened up about speaking out about Harvey Weinstein – which sparked the beginning of the Me Too movement

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